This morning very early, during my sleep, I got a message. I will try to put it into words the best I can.
"You all could do so many incredible things if you were more spiritual and not so earthly."
November 21, 2006
This morning, when I went to the cemetery, I knelt to kiss the picture of my son and I must have touched the fresh flowers that I put to decorate his sepulcher because one of them fell. I feel in my heart that my beautiful child gave it to me.
March 20, 2006
A few minutes ago, while I was taking a small break at work, I started praying "Our Father" and some "Hail Mary" because I was feeling anguish. Praying helps me to be calm. While I was praying, I discovered the reason why yesterday, I was waken up, at 4 p.m. (Miracles Page) The reason is that God wanted me to pray. I hadn't understood it until now, but it makes sense because a few days ago, in March 9, I received a message in my dreams that one of my missions in this life is to pray a lot. Since a long time ago, I have been waking up most of the time after 3:00 a.m. Sometimes I pray, and sometimes I go back to sleep, but I know and I feel in my heart that God is calling me to pray for my loved ones and for the whole world.
Now, I realize that God has been calling me in many ways to pray and I hadn't noticed it, until March 9, when I had my dream and today, while I was meditating about my experience of yesterday.
February 13, 2006
This morning again, between sleeping and awake, I received the following words: "He is inside you and he will never leave you." Like I said before, I am not sure how these messages come to me and why, I just know that when I wake up from these moments, these words are deep in my mind.
February 11, 2006
This morning while I was between sleeping and awake, I heard or received the following words: "Enter to the Services of God." I am not sure if this is a message for me, I just know that The Lord is guiding me to a path that I need to take.
February 1st, 2006
Today, I would like to share some words that I don’t know if I imagine or came to me. I don’t want to sin of arrogance or lack of humility, and that is why I am explaining that I am not sure if I imagined these words or they came to me as a divine message.
Today at about 5:30 a.m., I was half sleep and half awake, when the following words came to me: “God is glad in you.” When I realized these words, my heart felt joy, but at the same time, I was afraid that it was only my imagination.
Later at mass, I prayed and asked The Lord to help me to see clear if it was HIS message or my imagination because I don’t want to share something in my web page that is not true. Then, at the homily, the priest said that we need to be open to God’s messages that come in different ways. They come sometimes from people or family members. I took this as a confirmation of my prayer and this made me very happy, but if I am mistaken, I ask The Lord to please forgive me for my lack of humbleness and to you too. Glory to God!
January 1st, 2006
Last night, I went to sleep at about 11:00 pm, but at midnight, the sounds of the fireworks woke me up. I started praying for my kids and for all my loved ones and then I remembered my beloved Hernan. My heart felt sad because he is not physically with me anymore and I miss him so much. When I was thinking of him full of sadness, the phone rang and I answered it. The little person who called me at midnight to wish me a happy New Year, it was my beautiful and sweet Victoria, my beloved son’s oldest daughter! This phone call made me very happy and I took it as a loving sign that my son is near, he is not gone, he is in the presence of his children. Somehow Victoria felt that she needed to call me to wish me a Happy New Year at the exact time when I was sad thinking of my beloved Hernan. This is a loving sign from My Lord and my beloved Hernan. I don’t believe in coincidences, they are signs from God, thank you Lord!
I haven’t had a dream with my beloved son for a long time, so today, when I went to the cemetery to visit him and while I was praying a rosary, I was thinking of him and how much I miss him especially in days when all the family get together. I closed my eyes and I imagined him next to me hugging me and giving me a kiss in my right cheek. With my eyes closed, the tears rolled down my cheeks. When I open my eyes, the first thing I saw, it was a beautiful hummingbird flying in the closest tree. I immediately knew that this was a sign of my son. I knew that this little bird came to let me know that my son is here, with me and this was a loving gift that my awesome God granted me. Thank you Sweet Lord, thank you my beloved son!
October 26, 2005
Since I lost my beloved son Hernan, I have been thinking that I failed as a mother and I have been regretting what I didn't do for him and the bad times I gave him. Last night, I opened a card from a site that sends me all kind of different e-cards and one of them had a title that caught my attention, "I want you to know." I read the poem in it and it gave me a beautiful and healing message that I believe it's a message that God in HIS immense love and mercy, is allowing my precious son to send me. This is the verse that touched my heart deeply:
There were no bad times, Those were only days of growth. And God in His wisdom, Sent me the helper that I would need the most
The message that my heart feels I am getting is that whatever I did or I didn't do for him, was to help him grow to be the beautiful young man he was and that I was the helper he needed the most. Thank you Lord because YOU use mysterious ways to talk to us, thank you my beautiful child!
October 7, 2005
Today I received an e-mail from a beautiful soul, that made me remember about what happened to me, some time ago, and I detail it below: Some time ago, while I was at the cemetery visiting my son’s sepulcher, Michele my daughter in law and my two grand kids Victoria and Nathaniel, arrived. My grand kids were going to spend the night with me. Michele left and I told my grand kids to let me finish my rosary and to be quiet. They sat close to me trying to be silent. I was praying with my head down. Suddenly I lift up my head and looked at my grandson who is 6 years old and who is almost identical to my beloved son. He was looking at me with his dark eyes so similar to my son’s and in that instant, I felt that his look was the look of my son Hernan. All my body shivered and my heart filled with joy because I felt that who was looking at me, it was my beloved Hernancito.
The e-mail that I received today, this beautiful soul told me the following words: You must have your grand kids. Do you know something? I greatly believe that a part of the loved one that left is still inside his own kids, and if you look really well in the deep of the eyes of one of them, you will be able to perceive that who is looking at you, it’s him, your adored Hernan. I don’t know if you have tried, but I feel in my heart to tell you that it is really like that, and it’s possible that your son will use his kids to express you sometimes a message or simply to transmit you the words ”mom I am here…”
When I read the loving words that my friend sent me, I recalled what a few days before, I had experienced. When I saw the tight look of my little grandson, I saw the beautiful and strong look of my beloved son Hernancito. I don’t have any doubt that mi adored God is sending me the confirmation of what I have already experienced with the words that my dear Marilian sent me. That my beloved son is still with me through his beloved children. Thank you dear Marilian!
June 30, 2005
Last night a very good friend of mine called me after she received an e-mail from me. In my e-mail I talked about a problem that I have and which is giving me a lot of anguish and suffering. When I wrote that e-mail, I was full of desperation, tired and hopeless, so she called me to be there for me and to try to help me somehow. We talked for about two hours and after we finished our conversation on the phone, I felt different. My spirit was lift with hope and desire to keep going and to trust The Lord. I also felt embarrassed because her faith is a lot greater than mine and I ask The Lord to please forgive me and to help me to increase my faith, my trust and my love for HIM
One of the things she told me is that The Lord gives us tests and if we fail these tests, HE will continue giving them to us until we pass them and we learned from them. So she said, “I want to pass these tests because I don’t want to continue receiving them over and over.”
I never thought of my tests or suffering the way she looks at hers. I never looked my suffering as tests that I needed to pass in order to stop receiving them. It’s so simple and I never thought this way. To me her words are messages from God that I needed to understand to keep learning and to trust The Lord completely. HE is with me and HE will help me through all my suffering.
Thank you dear Kim, I love you and I ask My Lord to pour HIS blessings over you and your dear family.
April 18, 2005
Today something happened that I don’t know how to interpret, but I know that my Loving Lord is trying to make me understand something. The morning of April 16, I found a beautiful card with the Psalm 23. I liked it so much that I decided to send it to my dear friend Jeanne. A few minutes later, mi friend answered my e-mail saying that the Psalm 23 is her favorite psalm. When I saw her e- mail, I decided to include this psalm in my web site. I started looking for an image of Jesus as “The Lord is my Shepherd” and some appropriate music. I don’t know how long I was working on this page, but although is very simple and humble, I liked the results and I published it in my web site. Yesterday Sunday 17, I went to mass and with great surprise, the psalm that was proclaimed was Psalm 23, “The Lord is my Shepherd!” Besides, the lecture was about the same thing, “The Lord is my Shepherd.” Today Monday, the gospel was about “The Lord is my Shepherd.” It’s incredible how The Lord speaks to us and although most of the time we don’t understand, little by little, HE helps us to understand the message that HE is sending to us. I think I am starting to understand what My Lord is telling me. I love you Adored Jesus, My Good Shepherd.
Feb 16, 2005
Today, I would like to share a message that I got in my dreams on Feb 13, 2005. This message is not for me and I don’t know how to explain why I know it’s not for me, I just know in my heart that this message is for a nice lady from church.
Since my beloved child left, I have been in a support group. This support group is directed by a kind and beautiful lady who suddenly lost her son about 5 years ago in a car accident. This lady has been a great support for me because we feel alike. I think we have similar souls. In our group talks, I have shared the dreams that The Lord has been granting me which I feel are heavenly and loving blessings. When we talk about my dreams, she has told me that she doesn’t remember having many dreams of her son, but she feels happy for me whenever The Lord grants me a dream with my precious child. She has also shared her concern about her child dyeing so suddenly because he didn’t have time to confess his sins. She prays constantly for the salvation of his soul because she is afraid that he could be suffering in purgatory.
Very early in the morning of Feb 13, 2005, while I was sleeping, I seem to remember seeing her son. Although I never met him, I have seen pictures of him. Then, a soft voice told me, referring to him, the following words: “Little angel no more pain.” When I woke up, I started repeating myself the dream to not forget these words because I knew that this message was for my lady friend from church and that made me very happy.
The same day, early in the morning, I called my lady friend to tell her my dream, but I couldn’t find her. She was gone the whole day and I talked to her until night. When I told her my dream, she was happy and she asked me how I knew it was her son. I told her that I just know in my heart and that I was completely sure that this message was for her. I understand that this message was to tell her that her little angel was all right.
This morning of Feb 16, after mass, my lady friend came to me and told me that the same day I told her about my dream, she got something in the mail that confirms what I told her with my dream. When I heard what she told me, I was deeply touched with a beautiful feeling and my eyes got tears of happiness and gratitude to My Lord.
Dec 19, 2004
Today, I would like to share an experience that made me feel God's love. I have been having very hard and difficult days due to some personal problems and today, I went to church with my heart full of anguish and fear. When mass started, the first song that my daughter sang had a sign for me. Later, when father was saying the homily, he talked about how, many of us, live in fear and anguish. At the end of his homily, his words were: "Trust The Lord and everything will be all right." Those words were directly to me and I cried full of gratitude to The Lord for sending me signs to make me feel that HE is with me and my family and that everything will be all right. After his beautiful homily, my daughter sang two more songs that gave me more signs from God. The Holy Mass was full of messages for me that God in HIS infinite mercy and love, send me to make me feel HIS great love. My problems are still the same, but my heart is feeling the presence of My Lord and I trust HIM. I know HE will help me and my family to solve every problem we may encounter. Thank you My Lord, thank you in your Holy Trinity, thank you My Blessed Virgin Mary, AMEN.
Oct 31, 2004
Today I had an experience that made me cry and feel the love that come from God and my beloved son. I am going to share this experience that for me it’s a very clear message from my son, but I realize that for other people could mean nothing. The reason for this I believe, it’s that this message is just for me.
About a week ago, after Sunday mass, I saw a friend and her daughter. My friend told me that her daughter, who is my daughter’s friend, told her that she had a song that my beloved son used to play many times when she was visiting my daughter at home. My friend’s daughter then told me that she would give it to me. Today after mass, my daughter’s friend handed me the CD with this song, so when I got home, I put it in my CD player. While I heard it, I immediately remembered it. My son used to play it all the time. As you may know, I am Mexican and English is my second language, so I don’t write well and I don’t understand most of the songs. I just remember that I liked to hear it when my son used to play it, but I didn't understand a word. My friend’s daughter was very kind to write the words for me to understand it, so while I heard it, I read the words and to my surprise, it was like hearing my beloved son talking to me. The name of this song is “Silent Lucidity.” It’s a beautiful song that says something about do not cry and to wipe the tears of my eyes because the dream I had about someone close to me leaving life, it was just a bad dream. It also says that he will be watching over me, helping me to see clear, protecting me in the night and smiling next to me.
This song came to me by surprise, I didn't expect it, and it was like a gift from Heaven. Everything fits perfectly! I have had at least two dreams where somebody tells me that my son left something for me. I got the last one on Oct 20 and I shared it on Oct 23. A few days ago, on Oct 14, I got a dream with my precious son. It was the first dream that I shared in this site. He was just sitting down behind me, waiting for me while I was working, in Silent Lucidity! Thank you Dear Lord for allowing my beloved son to communicate with me.